To change is to lose

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It wants change and lives on romantic ideas that favor maintaining the status quo. It wants change and continues to see itself as the center of the world. It wants change and expects it to be televised. It wants change and doesn't want to lose anything. It wants change and is afraid of its own desire. It wants change and justifies itself for everything it doesn't do. It wants change and wants it to come from outside, to be done by it, to be shown how, to be easy, to be painless, to be smooth, to have a manual with a proven positive impact, to not involve twists and turns, to not lose its merit, so that it doesn't take risks, so that she isn't criticized, so that she doesn't frown, so that she doesn't feel alone, so that she doesn't feel lost, so that she isn't displaced from anything important, so that idealizations work their magic in transforming for her what she denies so much to herself. Do you really want a change or do you just want to stay in fashion and not miss the party?